Life moves on

Life moves on and so do I !
I have been really struggling at work..............the fatigue is overwhelming along with the side effects from the Tamox.   I have to teach a class next month...this means standing for about 3 hours more or less...I told my boss I did not think I could stand the whole time.....sigh !!!  I have to bring them a note from my doctor...........sigh.   Ok !  moving on !

Happy Birthday to me !!!  The first phase of my  recon surgery is scheduled for July 24.  My birthday.

I am happy, scared, overwhelmed and a mix of emotions over this.
I am trying not to read all the horror stories on the internet (The pain, the pain)
I keep telling myself, no one writes about the good stories right ? 
I hope to have new "boobs" by Christmas !

Good Things from Chemo:  my skin looked the best it has in many years; I learned I could not eat  and not starve; I found out how much people in my life cared about me; I got a lot better at applying makeup; I found out that I'm tougher than I thought I was.
Bad Things from Chemo: everything else.

They forget to tell me that I will suffer from the side effects of chemo for months (years ?) after.
Look at Robin Roberts...five years later...chemo screwed with her and it took five years to catch up !

I don't know if or when I'll get past stressing over every new test or wondering if every new symptom is cancer, but I'm hoping I will. Right now, I'm thankful to be alive and don't have to wear a wig :)
My hair is coming back dark and curly !!!  I was going to color it blonde, but I think I will wait a bit...it is kinda growing on me ...in more ways than one.