Ding Dong the wig is dead

Ding Dong the wig is dead !  The wicked wig !

Haha – got my hair cut yesterday, very very short boy cut for now and very dark (I miss my blonde).

Blondes have more fun....I cant wait to be blonde again, but that will be a few more months !

But no GRAY so I am happy about that. I will be highlighting it when it gets longer

I have not done away with the wig – yet. I am close to it however. I still wear it to work, but I am almost over that…I suspect one day I will wake up and say “forget about it” and be done with that. It is so freaking hot and itchy during the summer. My sister in law and I went out to dinner last week and I went wigless and no one looked at me funny…..:)

I wonder if people can tell by looking at me that I had cancer...or it is just a bad hair day !

I think I know that once I go without it,   there is no turning back…so right time and the right place is what I am talking about.

I went to my pre-op today for my surgery on the 24^th. I can’t wait to have my reconstruction….yes I am SCARED ! Really Scared. I know it will hurt and it is not an easy surgery ! BUT

I think I can I think I can I think I can….stay positive and stay strong.

Did I tell you I am on a lean and green diet ? I have lost weight….all part of my master plan for getting my health back. I am still sleeping a whole bunch and I am still fighting fatigue …but at least for the most part I am sleeping well…so I am glad about that.

The new meds have helped counter the side effects of Tamox – but not without a few side effects of their own….live and learn.

Work is stressful so that has its impact as well. I expect the next few weeks will bring some changes for me in that regard so stay tuned ! I did teach all of my classes this month and the students/employees gave me very high marks so I feel really good about that. And I was able to stand for 4 hours while teaching. I pushed myself…and I did it.  I pay for it later and I am totally wiped out and sleep for 10 hours after a day like that.

BUT

Every day I try to wake up in the right frame of mind and put a smile on my face and remind myself at how far I have come.