I am healing

It has been 4 weeks since I left work.   I must say the rest/no stress has done wonders for me.

My neuropathy is almost gone with the wind.  I am loving it.   It does show me what stress does to you when you are trying to heal.  I really should have taken a long medical leave while I was doing chemo.     I think by working it took a toll on my health.     There are days when I  sleep 10 hours.   My body needs it.  I am lucky to be able to sleep with out drugs.     I can say I am healing.


I dont miss the work, but I do miss my Whit friends.  The Whitney I knew is gone, and I was very lucky to get the good package from Hancock so that  I can  heal and get my reconstruction.

Speaking of recon...it is not for sissys.  It has been painful I will not lie.   But what is pain, it is all relative when you think of what I have been thru this past year  
Tissue expanders feel like concrete blocks with hard edges.  When you move the edges dig into your muscle sending them into spasms. They give you meds for that, but really you dont need them.  I find it if do not over do it (lifting, bending, stretching) - that I dont need the meds. I love the results so far and that keeps me going, seeing the end in sight.

Allen has been home and it has been great to spend time together.  People ask me what have you been doing all this time.  It is hard to say, but shopping, cooking, reading,  and really just enjoying the small stuff that I never had time for while I was working.

It is a raining Saturday morning and I am enjoying a nice cup of coffee, no place to go or errands to run as I was able to do all those during the week.  Nice,

I know I will have to go back to work sooner or later - but it is nice to take the time to heal.