Holy bone pain Batman......this chemo knocked me for a loop.
I am walking around like a 90 year old woman.....I swear I would use a walker if I had one. I may have to rent one before it is all over....
Better yet I need a scooter and a big hot tub to soak in.
I guess I should be grateful I am not hurling in a trash can....but the bone pain has been....well excruciating ! I have a high tolerance for pain but this is everywhere..... Last night I just curled up in a ball and cried for hours...(more like 30 minutes) - but I had to get some release from the pain. I then remembered I had a few left over pain meds from my port surgery...but they pain had gotten ahead of me and it took some time for the meds to kick in. You can reserve a room for me at Betty Ford - I will not be brave or strong and ride this out....nope, no way. Give me the meds.
My onc told me I would be a little "achy"- are you freaking kidding me........but I have come to realize they try to minimize side effects when they talk to you about what the chemo will do to you........no worse case senerios. I think they want to try to minimize your anxiety and hope for the best.
Never ending nausea, fatigue and excruciating bone pain ? It is a toss up.
Dont dare tell me Aleave or Advil will take care of this...nope I want the big guns so I can sleep.
I am also running a low grade fever so I know my counts are low and I have a good amount of fatigue going on......so I am sure I will be going in this week to see my onc for a count check up.
It is gonna be a long week.
At least I have three days off next weekend and Gracie will be off from school.
When I was laying on the sofa in pain yesterday - she went and got me an Icee. Icees dont fix everything but it sure tasted good.
I need to catch a break or two.....I am hoping this will be a day or three side effect and not last all week.
Unfortunately most side effects from chemo are cumulative as time goes on.
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